What’s in your way, is your way.

The title of this post is a phrase that took me a while to understand. A very lovely yoga teacher who I follow the teachings of on Youtube uses it in one of her videos. At first I was at a loss to understand. And then one day the light bulb pinged on. And now I love it and use it as a mantra when I’m facing a tricky situation.

It has been a crazy few weeks! I won’t bore you with the minutiae but I’ve been swamped and struggling to find time for everything, even more than I usually do. Studying is not happening anywhere near as much as I’d like. I am definitely not on top of the laundry. The cats are neglected (well, neglected compared to their normal indulgences). But my main issue is a massive brick wall of apprehension due to a big career change step I am about to take.

I have been teaching for 12 years. Eek!! And for the most part of that time, I have had serious issues with the education system in this country. I’m not going to get into it now. That’s (possibly) for another post. I went into teaching because I love kids. I still love kids but it’s time for something new. So I’m taking steps towards another career.

So many difficult decisions. I need to maintain a reasonable income. I need to make enough time to study, so that my new career can begin asap. I need to move seamlessly from one career to the next, cutting back on teaching gradually to make way for the proofreading and editing.

I am very lucky to have such a wonderful, supportive man in my life, who doesn’t hold me back from following my dreams. But that doesn’t change how scary this decision is, or that I’m the one who has to stand in front of someone and say, ‘I’m handing in my notice’. And always, in my weaker moments, the question; is this the right decision?

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So I started this post a week ago, and I have had a deadline bear down on me like a freight train since then, along with a massive kick up the backside (which I needed) and finally, the deed is done. I’m feeling relieved, apprehensive and emotional. I went from thinking about making this change three months ago, and feeling really positive it was the right decision, to feeling full of self-doubt. I needed the positive, certain me but she’s been hiding for a few weeks, so I had to tell the small, insecure, little girl me to get with the programme and step up.

Following my dreams has led me to much greater sources of happiness and contentment in the past. Of course there are little sadnesses in this instance, like saying goodbye to some amazing children who I’m honoured to work with, but in the end, I believe this is right for me. I’m finding my way.

Jack Eversea

Ok, so all you readers, you lovers of the wonderful world of fiction, here is one HOT book boyfriend and a story that takes you racing through a million emotions, not to mention a punch in the gut here and there!

Just FYI, I’m not one of those book reviewers who summarises the story. No. If you want to know what happens then read it yourself! What I will tell you is how the book made me feel and what I loved about the author’s style.

Firstly, I must tell you what makes these books (that’s right, there’s more than one Jack Eversea book, LUCKY US!) so special to me. My fabulous friend and kindred spirit, Natasha, wrote them. Now, let’s just get one thing straight, if you think that I would exaggerate or be all gushy just because I love someone then you don’t know me very well. I only shout about things I really believe in.

I met Tasha at University, we were both reading Psychology; she was in her final year, I was in my first. Those were some good times. Oh the stories I could tell you…but I digress. Over the years of our friendship, we’ve shared our love of writing and our attempted, unfinished stories. Which is why I am bursting with pride that not only did Tasha follow her dreams, she has succeeded in a HUGE way 🙂

The perfect setting for reading these books is, in my humble opinion, by the pool or the beach, in the hot sun. They are the ultimate holiday read, and I was fortunate enough to be able to read Forever, Jack (aka Eversea book 2) poolside in Crete. But let’s start at the beginning. When I read Eversea, the first person I fell in love with was Keri Ann (sorry Jack). One of my major issues with lots of YA/NA fiction is the super annoying, whingy, how-can-she-be-that-stupid, heroine. Seriously. I have given up on many a series because of this. So THANK YOU, Tasha, for Keri Ann. She is strong, yet vulnerable; sassy, but not bitchy and so believable that you’re right there with her on her roller coaster emotional journey.

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Now Jack, he is just dreamy. Totally swoon-worthy material. Lusting after a fictional character is fine, right? His brooding, bad boy self makes me all weak in the knees, especially when he delivers some of his heart-stopping romantic lines to Keri Ann 😉

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*sigh*

The tension between Jack and Keri Ann is palpable, and I love the lack of sickly sweet fairytale romance. No skimming over the obvious problems facing a small town, down to earth nobody getting into a relationship with a mega Hollywood A lister. Natasha addresses these in such a real way, you just FEEL everything with them.

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I’m using the US covers in my post, despite being a UK based girly. That’s because I love them. They are so beautiful and really reflect the story. I wanted to share them with you,and now you know what’s going on in case you head over to Amazon UK and get confused.  Personally, I don’t feel that the UK covers show enough of the depth of these stories and characters. Jack and Keri Ann’s story is so much MORE than a kiss on the front cover. But Tasha didn’t have a whole lot of say in them, so don’t let them put you off!

I can’t recommend these books enough! GO! Go now and buy them and read them and love them 🙂

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Halloween

So, having been ill with some nasty virus for ALL OF HALF TERM I was determined to make it out to at least one social occasion. I’d cancelled all the rest due to not feeling well but I’d put a lot of thought and effort into mine and Arijus’s costumes and I was determined we would show our faces, even if we had to stuff ourselves with day nurse (which we did).

It was our first Halloween party as a couple, so obviously we needed a couple costume. I did some research and made some suggestions. Arijus dismissed our two favourite TV couples, Booth &  Bones, and Castle &  Becket so that left gothic Alice and her Mad Hatter, as portrayed by Marie Hall in her Kingdom series.

I particularly liked this as gothic Alice is Asian (tick), bakes super cool cupcakes (modest tick) and obviously wears much cooler clothes than a cutsie blue dress with a white apron.

I was quite pleased with the results, it definitely cheered me up.

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I was in a bit of a rush so didn’t get a picture of my pumpkin squash cupcakes! They had a spiced cream cheese frosting and Halloween sprinkles and were very tasty. I think most of them were scoffed by the children running amock at the party, delighted that no adults were counting how many cakes they had had!

Oh, but I did have fun doing my nails and got a pic of them for prosterity.

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And finally, a fun pic taken at the party we went to, with my friend and hostess Nicky photo bombing!

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PS The tea cup and saucer is a nice touch, don’t you think?! I admit I may be overly pleased with myself on that one.